I am moved by music with a lyrical story. I love it. I was reading one of my favorite missionary blogs, The Livesay Weblog. I don’t really know these people and they certainly do not know me … but I do enjoy reading about their lives. I was kicking around in their archives and found a post entitled … The Long Defeat, that referenced a song by Sara Groves … by the same title. As I listen to this song, I knew that this composer had walked the same stretch of ground that I had and seen the same sites.
I will post the lyrics at the bottom … but, one line in the song stabbed me in the heart … and I actually commented “wow”, the first time I ever heard it. “I just can’t fight when I think I’ll win”. That truth is so amazing to me … that someone wrapped up a very complex current dilemma in my life with one line of lyric. Sometimes it gets so frustrating … living the same thing week in and week out … sometimes not seeing any progress in your situation. No solutions. All you get is … “just keep walking in the light, and trusting God.” But God! I need to know where I am going and what the purpose of all this stuff is … it is too heavy. Just keep moving.
Some may read this and totally not get it or miss get it. If you have ever struggled or suffered … you will. Here are the lyrics … find a mp3 and get a listen. Hope it helps you like it did me. — wg
I have joined the long defeat
That falling set in motion
And all my strength and energy
Are raindrops in the ocean
So conditioned for the win
To share in victor’s stories
But in the place of ambition’s din
I have heard of other glories
And i pray for an idea
And a way i cannot see
It’s too heavy to carry
And impossible to leave
I can’t just fight when i think i’ll win
That’s the end of all belief
And nothing has provoked it more
Than a possible defeat
chorus
We walk a while we sit and rest
We lay it on the altar
I won’t pretend to know what’s next
But what i have i’ve offered
And i pray for a vision
And a way i cannot see
It’s too heavy to carry
And impossible to leave
And i pray for inspiration
And a way i cannot see
It’s too heavy to carry
And impossible to leave
It’s too heavy to carry
And i will never leave





